Wasted Apologies

The old scars of the past show
Cut open, fresh, with new pain
A new twist

I can't change what I did
Just regret it
I can't offer him comfort
Just a bad revalation
That's all

The revalation
Zoom back a few years
Back to when I beat her
Back to when I was
The Bully

I could see the pain in her eyes
Why did I do it?
Did it bring me satisfaction?
She will bear scars for the rest of her life
That just brings me nausea

I can't offer my once-bullied boyfriend comfort
I can't take away the pain I caused her

I wonder how she was able to forgive me
I wonder what he will think of me now

This is all my fault
I'm so sorry